I've never felt so much love for one person as I do for Gus and at the same time never felt such frustration! Thankfully I have a fair amount of patience and I'm a very calm person but that doesn't mean I haven't had numerous breakdowns or had to take breaks to go outside and clear my head. Having a baby is the most wonderful thing a person can do. And can be the hardest thing at the same time. No matter what anyone says no one can really prepare you for either.
Being alone with a new baby in a new state with no good friends yet or family close by and my husband gone has been a challenge for me.
It's so funny how one week I will think I got it down and I have Gus' routine and the next week everything will change. He won't sleep in his crib , he doesn't like his swing , etc. I've spent many nights awake in bed after I finally get Gus to sleep talking to God, praying for Gus, Justin , and for me to have more patience and to he stronger. I think he answers me with Gus' sweet little smiles and his new laugh he is starting to develop ! It's so stinking cute and those little things just melt my heart.
Lets see what else's has happened ! Gus and I flew to Oregon in August so he could meet his grandparents and aunts and uncles and many many cousins:).. So many kids it was a lot of fun! My twin sister , my brother, and I all had babies in the last year. Plus all my other nieces and my nephew. Grandma and Grandpas house was crazy the whole time !!
Flying with a baby was another fun challenge.. I was ever so lucky to sit next to men on all four planes there and back and a few middle seats where I had to breast feed Gus right next to them!!! I had a cover and everything so obviously you couldn't see Gus or me but Gus is so big and he's so squirmy when he eats he would kick one man on one side and head butt the other.... It was all pretty awkward !! I'm definitely not one of those moms who can just comfortably nurse my baby in public.:p When we got back to Virginia Beach and got settled back to east coast time we just hung out and relaxed for.
It's late September now and the weather has cooled off a lot so Gus finally took his first trip to the beach and did a little swimming in the ocean . He did really good in the water and managed to not eat any sand which is amazing because he likes to put everything in his mouth. We then had a little zoo trip with the girls and now his daddy is home for two weeks and his Uncle Landon came from Texas to meet him.
Next month we will be moving into a new house, just a rental but hopefully a bigger house ( without giant water bugs aka cockroaches ) and in November we will be going to North Carolina to shoot some deer. Which I can't wait for .. I think my soul needs to do a little hunting and fishing and just being outside! It's good for me.
Then Texas for Christmas! Many things to look forward to and Justin being home for a little while will be wonderful.
I'll keep y'all updated as much as possible because life as I now know it as a mom is very busy!
And if any of this sounds like rambling try to remember I haven't slept much in 3 1/2 months ;)
